Wednesday, December 10, 2008

Conflicting thoughts

Well its been far too long since I last posted, basically for myself. And its no surprise that I am figuring out interesting things because of my lack of time spent in thought and getting into the word. They help me more than I really know until i slow down with them.

First off I love how God works. As soon as I got back home for thanksgiving the sermon at my church by my former youth pastor who has grown into an incredible speaker, was the beginning of an advent series dealing with the 7 I AM statements Jesus makes. The first "I AM the light of the world" Sweeeeeet (heres the link http://www.gebible.org/audio/113008.mp3) Just an interesting thing to have happen. It was an enjoyable sermon, but I should probably go back over it again to unpack it for myself even more. Just a cool thing to see that my random thoughts and conversations have something deeper behind them. Now if I could just continue to figure out and take the time to be with them.

My thoughts have been leading towards what is going to happen next. I love being back at Taylor, but have had an itch to step out of the boat and go for something that is beyond comfortable. I started to feel that it is the next logical step and that its where my heart was at. But after the back and forth of not going to the word and God about it it has become clouded and conflicting thoughts run through my head. So I am needing to get back to it all, the basics and thoughts from myself others and where God leads. It is always interesting to see possibilities and also feel your way through to where you should be.

This is a thought for my next post (i hope) the concept of self.... and the sinfulness of focusing on the self as well as the balance of being yourself. Hmmm

Well here is another thought to ponder for and from me, after watching Dark Knight last night... "It is always the darkest just before the DAWN"